Daily Music Day 3

A song that makes me happy...god, there are so many! Hmm....let me look through the iPod and think really hard! Ok, I am going to with a song that is at the top of my most played list, and a song that I LOVE more then anything!
All Time Low - Weightless. This song....is just so up beat and energetic! I can't hear this song without getting up and moving around to some extent! Its just a great song!!

Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy





Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

Daily Music Day 2

Least favorite song...hmmm...this is really hard, cause I have to sit here and try and think of a song that I really just cant stand! Which is really hard cause if I dont like it, i dont have it! Ummm.....Ok! Have you ever heard Who Let the Dogs out? Its not a popular song anymore, not by a long shot, but I feel like I have heard it a million times a day lately! It drives me crazy and I just want to scream when it comes on! Even when it was popular I really couldnt stand it! 

Well thats it for today, I will be back with you again tomorrow! Happy April Fools Day! =D 

Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

Daily Music

Have seen people doing this, and thought it was really cool! So, I am going to do it now! =D Favorite song...this is really hard! There are so many that I could pick. Could be fave song of all time, could be fave song right now...But I am going to go with fave song right now...and that would have to be Miley Cyrus - "When I Look At You" Shes not someone I normally listen to, shes not someone that I really like. But this song, the lyrics just hit me. They make me think of my hubs so much! Hes the rock, hes what makes my days worth being! So I just want to thank him, and let you enjoy the song! =D


Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

Summer Concert Itinerary! Pretty Freaking PSYCHED!

OK, so this summer, I am planning my first big road trip.....which is really a bunch of smaller road trips. I am hitting up as many concerts as I can this summer, not even caring if I see them more then once! Below, is a list of the shows I am going to be trying to make it to. Let me know if you will be at any of these, or if you know of any other shows I need to hit up! Look forward to hearing from all of you! =D 

And of course, I will be seeing Eclipse in there at some point as well! Cant miss that! =D

The AP Tour April 13 @The Beaumont Club in KCMO (Where I saw ALL TIME LOW) NeverShoutNever, Hey Monday, The Cab, Every Avenue, & The Summer Set.

The Bamboozle May 1&2 New Jersey : Paramore, Weezer, Drake, Ke$ha, 100 Monkeys, 4 yrs Strong, Hanson, The Maine, The Pretty Reckless, The Ready Set,VersaEmerge, Hey Monday, Motion City Soundtrack, NeverShoutNever, OkGo, The Summer, Wale.

Bamboozle Chicago May 15th : Cobra Starship, 3Oh!3...which is why I wanna go!lol...

Bamboozle Roadshow..seeing this three times! ALL TIME LOW, BoysLikeGirls, LMFAO, 3Rd Eye Blind, Good Charlotte, Hanson, Cartel, Forever The Sickest Kids,HelloGoodbye, Shwayze, Simple Plan, Stereo Skyline, The Ready Set, & Vita Chambers....
1st : June 3 @ The Joint in the Hard Rock in LAS VEGAS!
2ND : June 9 in Bonner Springs @ the Sandstone Amphitheater
3rd : June 13 @Six Flags St. Louis...where I will meet the bands and ride rides!

Warped Tour 8-2 in Bonner Springs Ks. : Artist Vs. Poet, Automatic Loveletter, Breathe Carolina, Four Year Strong, Hey Monday, Mayday Parade, Sum 41, The Cab, NeverShoutNever, The Pretty Reckless, The Rocket Summer, The SummerSet, VersaEmerge, We Are The In Crowd, We The Kings, You me at Six. 

The Honda Civic Tour 8-18 : Paramore, Tegan & Sara

Complete Randomness, but I just realized....

Ok, so its currently 3:27 in the AM, and I am still sitting at my computer, doing random things that really could wait until another time. I have to be up to get Mason at 7:50, and that is going to come quick. 
But, as I was sitting here, looking at random websites, mostly looking at clothes, I realized something. I don't pick out clothes specifically to what I want, I pick them more for how others are going to look at it. 
First thing you have to understand, is that I am a very big home-body. I don't go out, I don't party, I stay in. I would much rather be at home with my two kids and my hubs then out at some bar with all the single people. I really don't see the point in that scene anymore, its just not me. So, my interaction with people is things like the store, or family gatherings. I don't have a lot of "close" friends that actually live around here and see me on a daily basis. More of my close friends are people I have met on the social side of the internet. Facebook, twitter, fanfiction. I have made these great friends, and yet, I never actually see them. 
But, when I go to buy a new shirt or something, I am more worried about what brand is most popular, or what style, then what is going to make me most comfortable. Like, glamour kills, or fox racing, or something along those lines. I can't even tell you if I really like those brands anymore, or if it was because someone else told me that they liked them! 
I have come to realize, that in the last few years, I have lost myself, and let the real Lindsey, whoever she may be, fade into the background. I have done everything with the intention of everyone elses approval, and thats not what lifes about. Lifes about being happy and living hte way  you want to! 
Starting tomorrow, I am going to try and live for me, be who I want to be. I am not sure what my first steps in this will be, so if you have any advice, I would honestly love to hear it! Thank you!! =D 

<<3 LynZ_Ann

Horrible Blogger!

Ok, so I totally haven't updated this, once again, in forever! And I really have no excuse! I was sick, but that should have given me even more time to update this damn thing! But for some reason, I find that I am always forgetting that this thing even exist! I sometimes feel as if my words arent even that important, not needing a public place on the internet to vent or discuss what random shit is going on in my head. Yes, I have posted writings here, but I just feel that that isn't even important, cause my motivation to write is simply out the window. I think the reason I love this thing so much, as I said when I remember it exist, is that I can come here, and just vent. Say whatever the heck is on my mind, let it spill out of my head, bouncing from subject to subject, and not even care! I dont know who reads this, and I dont care. I am not doing this to impress anyone and I am not trying to have perfect grammar, or have my thoughts make sense! I am doing it, to keep my sanity! Cause it really seems, that I remember I have this, when I am haivng a bad day, adn really just need to clear my head. So, here it goes!

I hate fake people! Like, despise them! What is the point of telling me something, that has NEVER happened, that is no where near the truth? Does it make you feel like a better person, knowing that I think what you have told me is amazing, but knowing yourself that you have never and pry never will done the things you say you have done? Lets say for instance, that you tell me that you won the lottery...but realy didn't. I would be super jealous, happy for you, etc. BUT you would know that those feelings arent really deserved, and how would you feel? Would you really feel like an awesome person, knowing that you really didn't experience this, and are living off of ramen and easy mac? I would REALLY hope that you wouldn't. So why would you even want to tell that lie, cause if it was me, I would honestly just feel ten times worse about myself , not better! Really!!

Ok, the next rant! lol...Hmm..this is like a couple weeks of rants built up, so I am trying to decide what I really need to vent about! I don't have a freaking clue...really that one above is something that has ALWAYS bothered me, something that i feel everyone should think about and decide if they really wanna be that type of person. I dont know about many of you, but I really want to be able to think of myself as a decent person, at least a halfway decent person. Honesty, is a big part of that. So I guess the point of this whole ramble is that you should always be honest...always be the type of friend that you want people to be to you!

Ok, I am going to step off my soapbox, and go do something else..something more productive. Even though, as I said, this blog is to help me keep my sanity!

<3, LynZ_Ann

Hit The Lights DVD from Glamour Kills!

Resolutions and all that jazz!

Ok, so for those that know me, know that before I had Kailee, I was extremely small. I weighed like, 120 pounds, and was pretty healthy! I had Kailee nearly 6 years ago. I have not lost the weight from when I had her, and then almost 3 years ago, I had my son. Who I gained even more weight from. I am currently at 190...thats 70 pounds heavier then I was before, nearly double! I have tried many many times to loose the weight, but have never succeeded!
I made a resolution to loose that weight, and at least 30 pounds of it, I want to be before this summer. I recently purchased an elliptical and a weight machine. I have been trying to use both, and to cut back on what I eat.
Heres my deal! My hubs is an AMAZING cook. He is always cooking something and I am used to eating pretty big helpings. So, lately I have been cutting back on my portions, and trying to eat healthier. I have cut back on soda and tea, and making up for that with water. I am going to start taking vitamins and start working on my metabolism by eating smaller meals more often.
I am hoping to complete my goal this time, and be back to pre-pregnancy weight before this time next year. Is 70 pounds in a year to much?? I dont know...
Other things I am trying to do, grow my hair out and get it back to being as long as it used to be.  After that I am going to be cutting, layering, and dying it. But nothing is 100 percent on what I am going to do. I have been looking at getting it permanately straightened, so I dont have to do it every morning. But that is not for sure yet.
Another thing I am working on is my skin. I am trying to get it cleared up, even toned, the works! If you have any advice on that, like what products to use or home remedies, I would greatly appreciate it!
The last thing, is my teeth. I was never really worried about them when I was younger, so now that I am older, they are not in the best of shape. I am going to be going to several appointments and getting them fixed. Not sure what all they will have to do, but something!
As I said, if anyone has any advice, ideas, etc I would love to hear them! =D Thanks for listening to me blabber!

Brick By Boring Brick excerpt

Trainwreck

I sat in my room, playing with strands of my hair, hoping my parents would be here soon. I hadn't seen them for roughly a month, only spoken with them on the phone twice in that time, and they had said they were ready. I had told them I was ready. Now that the day was actually here, I wasn't so sure. I had been here for a year! I had came here the summer after my sophmore year. God, what a horrible time that had been. I had thought things were going good, that the meds were working. How wrong I had been. After all that happened that summer, my parents thought it best to bring me here, Shadybrook. It was a mental health clinic. It was about 2 hours away from where we lived, in Seattle. My father Carlisle, was a very respected doctor, where my mom Esme, was the most wanted interior designer on the west coast. My brother Edward was what people called a musical genius, always having some kind of recital or practice to deal with.

I continued to play with my hair, finally hearing footsteps coming down the hall. I looked up, expecting it to be my parents, but instead it was my doctor. I stopped messing with my hair, knowing he would say something about it. I smiled, gesturing him to come into the room.

“Alexis, how are you doing today? Feeling any anxiety about going home?” he asked me, casually leaning against the desk on the other side of the room.
“Honestly, a little yeah. This is what I have been working towards, right? To be able to walk out of here, go home and lead as normal a life as possible. Now, I have that chance, and I am so scared. Scared that I am just going to ruin it.”
“Alexis, there is no ruining it. You just go home and take it a day at a time. You may have set backs, thats understandable. Its going to be completely different then being here. Your going to start school in a couple of weeks, take these next few weeks to try and reconnect with old friends, maybe even make new ones! Spend this time reconnecting with your family! That is going to be the most important part. I know that you have kept in touch through technology and their visits, but this is going to be different, you will be around each other constantly. You are going to be relearning who these people are. Remember, as much as you have changed over the past year, they have probably changed just as much.”

We talked for a few more minutes, when I heard the distinct sound of my mother Jimmy Choos in the hallway. A smile grew on my face, as she turned the corner. I jumped off my bed, running to her. We collided, holding onto each other for our lives. No matter what had happened in the last couple years, my mother had always been there. Her belief in me had never wavered, when otheres had. She was my rock! She kissed my forehead, standing back to look at me.

“The amount of meat on your bones would feed no one! Have to change that at home wont we?” she asked me, a smile on her face.
“Mom, where is everyone?” I asked, expecting that they all would have come.
“Don't worry, Lex, their here. They are downstairs. Alice is going through your suitcases, grabbing anything that she feels shouldn't come home with you, Edward is putting as much of the luggage in the trailer, and your father is signing paper work. They all came. Lets grab your bag and head downstairs.” she said, placing her arm around me.

I grabbed my bag and we left the room.

Rough draft of prologue for "Misguided Ghosts"

I stood there, knowing what they wanted me to do, but not knowing what I was going to do. My body was refusing to coroporate and my mind had been shut off for days. I could feel the eyes on me, waiting so that we could move on. It had been hard enough to get them to allow me to be involved in this part. The people handling this, they werent very close with any of them, so there for, really didnt know how involved I was. How much my life was intertwined with theirs. But none of that mattered anymore. All that mattered was that I get this over with, so that we could head back. I let the dirt sift in my fingers, still not ready to give it up, still not ready to admit that this was even happening. In my head all I could think was, 'How could you do this to me? All of you? Really?' But I knew it was no use. Suddenly, as if things werent bad enough, I heard someone clear their throat, like they were trying to rush me. Are you fucking serious right now? Your going to try and rush me through this? Your going to take away my last goodbye? God, how did I not realize that the rest of them were ass-hats and there was a reason they werent around that much? As I let the dirt go from hand to hand, I saw the light reflect off my left hand, which just squeezed my heart a little bit more. I had only had the ring for a few days now but it was already null in void. Looking up, I could see the impatience in nearly everyones eyes. Scanning the crowd, I spotted a man, my age roughly, standing towards the back. He looked extremely familiar, but I couldnt put a name to the face. I looked away, knowing that I needed to do something. I couldnt just stand up here all day, keeping everyone waiting. So, with a last look down at the ground, I let the dirt fall from my fingers, and listened as it gently hit the coffin, my tears falling like rain with no outlook of clearing up.